Before Love Grace And Light came to be, I had a blog back in August 2015.
God confirmed that He wanted me to start a blog during one of my early morning prayers while driving to work. I gave God my excuses along with my doubts and apprehensions on why I didn’t think I was cut out for it. Nonetheless, It was His Will. I obeyed and started the blog, anyway.
I knew ABSOLUTELY NOTHING about blogging but I wanted to do this blog in excellence. After all, this blog was for the Lord. Three months into blogging, between the struggle to come up with fresh content, the overwhelming research of metrics, and lack of engagement from others, I walked away from the blog.
Maybe it wasn’t the right time or I wasn’t ready. I wasn’t exactly sure. I was almost certain that since I blew it in doing God’s work, He wouldn’t be calling back again. At least not for this.
Surprisingly, God presses upon me to start blogging again in November 2017. His call was stronger than before. Getting past the familiar feelings of the doubt again, I created the blog you now read as Love Grace and Light.
My almost 2-year journey as a Christian blogger has been a roller coaster ride. I experienced awesome growth as well as setbacks. I’m always in search of ways to blog in excellence for God as I make a commitment this time around to not make the same mistakes as before.
Lately, my journey has been difficult. A few weeks ago, I seriously thought of doing the same thing I did back in 2015: shut this blog down and walk away.
While rationalizing in my own thoughts, I gave reasons why I should end it:
- Keeping up with the metrics and numbers was too much
- My blog wasn’t as awesome as others
- Very few people or no one reads them
- I feel burned out
This was a serious dilemma for me.
Deep down inside, I want to remain faithful to my blog and God’s work but not at the expense of feeling like a constant failure.
I knew better not to make any rash decisions (as you read what happened before). For that reason, I would take some time out to seek God and His Word on what to do. I laid everything out before Him. In my deep discouragement and on the brink of giving up, God’s Word had a few profound things to say about me wanting to give up.
“And whatever you do, do it heartily, as to the Lord and not of men, knowing that from the Lord you will receive the reward of the inheritance; for you serve the Lord Christ.” (Colossians 3:23-24)
Reading this scripture was HUGE for me. My heart was deeply convicted while settling back in spiritually correct place. God revealed that my focus was ENTIRELY off course which contributed to my discouragement.
Instead of seeking to please Him in my blogging, my focus somehow shifted into pleasing everyone else. Sure, some of my blog posts were decent but the true heart motive behind it was tainted, I’ll admit.
Seeking to please everyone means we’re at the mercy of their fickle approval and reward. When we seek to please and glorify God, we will not only receive His approval and blessings but continuous strength and joy in doing His work.
I thought, “Okay, Lord. I agree and understand. What about the metrics, numbers, all that SEO stuff?”
God reminded me to seek Him first and remain obedient to Him and all of that will eventually come (Matt. 6:33). If it doesn’t, that’s okay too. My job is to remain faithful. Of course, God cares about me being effective in doing His work. However, my eyes are to remain fixed on him at all times.
Still, on the fence about the blog shut down, there was one particular scripture that kept me from quitting. This scripture boosted my desire to persevere; encouraging me to hold on to my blog a little tighter. You could call this word this blog’s “saving grace.”
“And let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” (Galatians 6:9)
I had to read it again.
God calling me to do this blog for His Will and pleasure is GOOD. No matter how difficult things may be, I’m doing good work. God’s good work. Even if I don’t see the results now or at all on this side of heaven, my efforts WILL be rewarded.
My obedience, faithfulness, perseverance with my heart and eyes fixed on Christ is what will make me an excellent blogger.
I believe being a Christian blogger is TRULY a calling by God. Not everyone is cut out for it. It’s hard work but great work. As much as I wanted to give up and quit, I’m glad that I didn’t.
If you’re a Christian blogger or called to be one, let me encourage you to NEVER give up even when everything is telling you to quit.
Keep sharing what God has placed in your spirit. Most importantly, remember Who you are doing this for and why. When you feel like giving up as I did, remember to turn to the one Who called you to this. Your breakthrough and blessing in your blogging breakdown is one encouraging scripture or prayer away.