My goodness! It feels like I haven’t blogged in weeks! When you’re into a new leadership position learning the “ins and outs” of everything, it’s like that sometimes.
The new Bible study is now officially here, and I survived my first day as a leader. YAY!!! *inserts confetti and fanfare here*
I want to genuinely thank everyone who has been praying and encouraging me on this new journey of leadership; whether in person and on social media. It means more than you know.
It’s almost been a week, and everyone wants to know the burning question.
HOW DID YOUR FIRST DAY IN LEADERSHIP GO?
Day One of Leadership
My first day of leadership was MANY things. But I’ll narrow it down to 3 words.
- Spiritually Empowering
Nothing makes you feel more unqualified and awkward than sitting before fifteen 55+ women who I’m sure has exponential biblical wisdom and maturity than you. Being the youngest and their group leader is intimidating.
I’ll be honest and say at the beginning of our time together I was in my head a little bit assuming and thinking the worst.
“Great. The ladies probably think even with the leader’s training I received I still look like I don’t know what I’m doing.”
“See. I knew it. I’m not cut out to lead these women. They’re much older than I and will run circles around me.”
I was very much aware of the enemy filling my head with his lies. I was nearly starting to believe them. But one essential truth remained, I was called and chosen by God to do this.
It was my story, and I’m sticking with it.
Before leaving the house to begin my first day of leadership, I would visually call to memory the scripture on my dining room table that’s been searing in my mind, heart, and spirit. It’s God’s loving and familiar promise that I would adopt not only for my first day but for the entire school year.
“Be strong and of good courage, do not fear nor be afraid of them; for the LORD your God, He is the One who goes with you. He will not leave you nor forsake you.” (Deuteronomy 31:6 NKJV)
Do not fear nor be afraid of them. “Them” includes the new group I’m meeting for the first time.
After nervously introducing myself and a little about me, the group starts to warm up. I communicated to them that this is my first time as a group leader ever, and I’m honestly quite nervous.
What a blessing it was to experience the downpour of grace, patience, understanding, encouragement, and support from the group!
As we got to share and get well-acquainted with one another, I was starting to feel God’s peace and a little more relaxed. God’s presence allowed me to rest and let Him take the wheel in steering the group’s discussion.
It was also a blessing to hear the ladies’ testimony about how they came to Christ, the bible study, and how they overcame what would be considered “impossible.”
God’s presence in the present ultimately gave me strength and power, but the word of these ladies’ testimony in Christ was an abundant wellspring to draw power from filling me to the brim.
Not before long, it was time to dismiss and leave.
While gathering my things to leave, so many thoughts were playing in my mind. Some were good. Some were me thinking about all the things I should’ve done or said. But there’s one major lesson I’m learning.
Leadership in Christ is not about complete control. It’s about surrender and service.
I’m learning to follow the lead and depend even more on the Holy Spirit’s prompting and plans when leading than focusing on my own flawed and messed up agenda when doing God’s work. I know I can’t serve others the way God needs me to in my strength. So I empty myself and make way from Him to work through me.
Between the awkward moments, fear, and doubt, it’s incredible and worth it to see God work through me and those around me. Not bad for my first day, right?