He (Moses) said, “O my Lord, please send by the hand of whomever else You may send.” (Exodus 4:13 NKJV with emphasis added)
If it’s any scripture I’ve been identifying with as of late, it’s this one. A few days ago, I would receive a call that would shake my faith and cause me to step out of my comfort zone.
Leadership for an international bible study is calling me (again). Like Moses, I’m honestly starting to run out of excuses on why I don’t want to do it and how someone else would be perfect for it.
Notice, I said again. I was able to duck, dodge, and run from this divine call to leadership twice on separate seasons when I lived in California. I gave excuse after excuse though reasonably valid as to why I wouldn’t accept it.
Spiritually, I wasn’t ready, and my work schedule was too hectic to make that kind of commitment. It was the truth. There were no lies told.
Also, I figured that since I already declined this call twice, that would be the end of that question coming up. NO was NO! I wouldn’t have to hear about it at least for a while or ever again in life.
Even when fleeing from to a different state years after, God’s call regarding leadership comes back again for the third time. At this point, I’m thinking, “I thought we were over this by now. God, PLEASE send one else! You’ve got the wrong girl!”
This time, my attempt to hide behind the excuses and comfortable Christian cliché phrase, “I’ll pray about it” was useless. God’s call for me to enter into leadership was imminent no matter where I hid.
As I’m sincerely praying about entering into leadership this time around, God is revealing to me in His Word in Exodus chapters three and four some of the reasons why I’m running and His truths dismissing these excuses I’m giving.
What’s My Defense?
I would imagine Moses living comfortably in Midian before God announced, called, and sent Moses to deliver the Israelites from Egypt. Though living in refuge, He’s a family man with a modest job with NO intention of going back to Egypt. He’s living a comfortable life.
When God does call him, Moses immediately dismisses and disqualifies himself in the call of leading the people out of Egypt to the promised land. WHY?
I’ve realized that his reasons could be identical to mine:
- FEAR (which is the BIGGEST for me)
- Wanting to hide out from being set apart to blend in
However, I notice that for every excuse that I threw at God and even Moses had (Exodus 3:11, 4:1, 10, 13), God continues to toss back truthful reassurance about who He was and WHY I’m to fulfill His will (Exodus 3:12, 14-15, 4:5, 8-9, 11, 15). There was no winning and getting out of this argument.
Where God calls and sends us, He promises to be with us and equip us while fulfilling His will. Our quirks, disabilities, and disqualifications from our mouths are NO match for God’s final qualification. As being chosen and set apart specially for His purpose, it’s not a matter of “if” His will be done but WHEN.
God plans will ultimately come to pass.
When The Calling Catches You
Leadership seems great and enticing until you’re in it. We love to feel the power, control, and the heights we’ll make but will give a hard pass on the big responsibility that comes along with it.
I’d like to believe that Moses realizes that as do I. But there’s no way around it. He was called to lead as I am now.
Though Moses may not have had the perfect leadership, I can say that I admire His faith in walking and answering His mission in authority.
The heights that he’s seen and been because of his faith and death-grip trust in God created a dent in biblical history.
I will never gain my “mountain experiences” with God if I’m content in the lowlands of fear and comfort while running from my calling.
Realizing this call isn’t going anywhere and finally caught up with me, I’m stopping and surrendering to this call despite my apprehension.
Most likely, I’m going to take this position. I know that when I do, I’m going to hold on to God’s power with everything I have because I can not do this on my own. Prayers are needed.
Just out of curiosity, have you ever been in this scenario? What were some of the godly wisdom and encouragement that stopped you from running from your calling? Share your thoughts below.